The little lost girl

I had a lot of life’s difficulties when I was young. I never had anyone teach me how to handle life, since my mother had died when I was very very young. Indeed in this awful plight I became this little lost girl.

You see I was not born into a family that was considered structured. Indeed I was born into a family that many of us so often call ‘a dysfunctional family.’ It is pretty hard to grow up not knowing how to handle life and the circumstances and situations that life will bring. In order to cope I just closed myself up, so to speak. I made up my mind that I was safe and protected in my shell. The real me was locked up inside.

In 1998, when I rededicated my life back to the Lord .Jesus, the Lord spoke to my heart and told me that I was like Fort Knox; I had erected so many walls up in my life to protect me from others – such that no one could get in and neither could I get out. I had entombed myself. When we try to save or protect ourselves from life and its circumstances and situations, we end up doing more damage to ourselves. In fact we hurt ourselves and others as well.

My heart can never truly in words express the love and gratitude I feel for Jesus and what He has done for me in the way of the cross – the price He paid for me. I was a little girl lost and Jesus came to get me. Just like the parable of the lost sheep; He came after me. Just like the story of Lazarus, He came for me.

It was in a prayer meeting one afternoon back in 2001 that my freedom came. One minute I was sitting in a chair and the next, I was prostrate on the floor. All around me was dark, but I heard the voice of Jesus; it was soft, gentle and kind. He said to me “Niecy, it is time to come out.” I remember saying to Him, ‘Lord, I don’t want to come out.’ He spoke again, ‘Come,’ in this experience, He held out His hand for me to take; and I did. He walked me out of that dark tomb on that blessed day! I can still remember the scream I let out as I came out; it was a scream of a little girl lost and afraid, but who was now found. Jesus came for me and saved me from myself.

Have you created a tomb or a place you call safe? Maybe you are trying to protect yourself from the world’s circumstances and situations. I’m here to tell you without Jesus it will not work. Jesus is the only way. I encourage you not to lock yourself up inside and lock others out. Open your heart up to the One who knows how to find you. He came to save, rescue, reclaim repossess, and fetch back those who are lost. Believe me, if you don’t know how to come to Him He knows how to come after you. Jesus knows how to find you. He knows how, when and where to find us. He will meet us right where we are.

Jesus is my safe place now. His amazing love reached out for me; it took total control of my heart and my focus. The good news is He wants to do the same for anyone who recognizes and admits their need for Him. I’m so grateful today that He didn’t leave me in that lost state. He knows our hearts, and He knows if we really want to be found.
Father, I thank you for the great gift of your Son Jesus, who knows how to come after us and rescue us from this wicked world, from the harm of others, and from ourselves. Father as you did for me, do the same for those reading this article, who might need rescuing themselves. For You said in Your word that it is Your good pleasure to give us the kingdom.

Ref: Luke; 15:4-7, John; 11:38-44

Niecy Lewis
She is an itinerant minister. She is married with four grown daughters and grandchildren. She always says, ‘I love the Lord, and I want to follow Him.’